My Kabbalah Diary

Some people ask what's that Tikun? And some of them answered, Tikun is a karma, or a mission in one's life, or something that has to be recovered. But the truth of Tikun himself is not always talking about something bad. Have you ever thought about how a person is born with various missions that are different from one another? Or, just keep believe , when your life is going through a very difficult journey, because if you have to face the same problem, or face the same challenge, it will bring your life all the time around the same desert? Yes, it is Tikun. And be aware, that not forever, Tikun is something very scary or boring to deal with alone. However, when someone has met the light, then when he will be faced with Tikun that will immediately make peace in his life. The more a person walks according to where the Light has led him, the easier it will be for a person to find his tikun. And the more a person walks with the Light, the more he also gains the courage and ability...

Some people question what a spiritual gateway looks like? I remember when I was very childhood, how much I longed to go to the end of the earth, just to know where the real spiritual gateway was. While if we study Kabbalah further, we will see that even though the Temple Mount is included in Malchut, because anything built by humans will eventually collapse. Because what became the Temple Mount itself spiritually is none other than ourselves. So, where exactly is the spiritual gate located? When we fall asleep, and our souls and our spirits travel to meet the Creator Himself. Through the dreams, sometimes we know what the true mystery of the spiritual world is like. Of course, dreams are not the answer as the spiritual gateway in this question. Instead, the world of imagination, our thoughts and how we imagine is really the spiritual gateway. Humans are born with an open inner eyes and are so close to nature, and before we humans grow older, humans are increasingly influenced the langu...

Maybe, what I have written at this time, it will be as controversial as I have written the most. As if the lizard man who became just the one of the famous conspiracy theory to be discussion Alright, now I will share about the lizard man in the Kabbalah consciousness itself. At first, Bereshit when the first man feel into sin, since Adam and Eve eaten the fruits of The knowledge of good and evil. The tree of knowledge of good and evil was that part of Malchut aspect. But the tree of life meant that the "Wisdom". Each of the two trees had no fruit, but Samael, the old serpent, has made the fruit of the knowledge of good and evil be fruitful, and the it was created from the Samael's own sperm. And when Adam let his wife to eat the fruit, in just link of an eyes, human life was so different than before, and this was often referred to as the  magic secularism. And because Eve ate the fruit of knowledge of good and evil, she became pregnant, and gave birth to Cain. So that, in...

In this life, wherever, whenever, and whoever, always meet two choices or two circumstances or more that are contradictory to one another. And this term, we often heart as dualism, like the philosophy of yin-yang. However, in the Kabbalah world, is is different from this yin-yang concept, although there is no denying that. Like the spirit and soul, and body, they are nor something dualism, but it's about the oneness. Just like an inseparable couple with true love, they are still one in unity. Meanwhile, always there's tiferet, which is the giver of harmony or balancer that binds the differences into one union. Like the story of Leah And Rachel. Rachel was interpreted as black, and Leah was interpreted as white. In the Kabbalah world, white was interpreted as mystery, but black was interpreted as revelation. And we live together in a world that full of manifestations. And the definition of manifestation in Kabbalah's teaching is something that happens in the spiritual world,...

In creation, from the very beginning the heavens and the earth were created, the male and female aspects were inseparable from one another. Y-H-V-H is the male aspect of the Divine, and the female aspect of the Divine is the Shechinah. However, from these two aspects that exist within Y-H-V-H cannot be separated. Why, then, is Y-H-V-H the Divine always made up as the male aspect of the Divine? Because, from the consciousness of the Kabbalah, the Divine or Zeir Anpin, aspects that will get praise in the end will always be on the Masculine itself, and not on the woman. So, what about the human person himself? Every individual has male and female aspects. However, not everyone has the same aspects, but every individual has a male or female aspect that stands out. However, as creatures, we are all female or Malchut aspects of nature to receive, and because of that, every creation has a tendency to be selfish. And only the Creator has only a male aspect, that is, as a source. And therefore...

Right on this day, I returned to reading Zohar Bo after a long time I read us Zohar from Zohar's prologue page. For me, during my spiritual journey, the first parshah of the Zohar that I read were 2 parshahs, Parshah Bo and Parshah Beshalach. And these two Parshahs were the only ones I myself kept repeating over and over again for 2 years.  Even though it was very confusing for me, this is the first step for me to experience my new spiritual journey with Zohar. Of course, 2 years of my spiritual journey was not something that was easy enough, but something that had to be fought for. But even so, gradually Zohar changed my life from my inner self, to my surroundings when I was going through my lowest point and the situation was completely turned upside down for me. And through my spiritual journey with Zohar, I have seen many of my spiritual experiences, and I have learned a lot from them. First, I learned that Kabbalah does not only teach how to build one connection, but vertically...

Maybe for some people as a Kabbalah beginner, or for the first time reading the Zohar book, we will often read and come across the term Malchut. And when I myself just understood what Malchut was, how shocked I was, because like the Sabbath, the Temple Mount, the ocean, King David, they all refer to Malchut himself, even m ore than that. The throne of the Kingdom of Heaven itself is Malchut. So what is the meaning of Malchut himself? Malchut means kingdom, and to speak of Malchut is to speak of judgment itself. Maybe for some beginners the word judgment itself is something very terrible. But it is also undeniable in the spiritual world of Kabbalah. But in Kabbalah, judgment or Malchut has a much more meaning than that. In the spiritual world of Kabbalah, judgment is one of the characteristics of the Creator, and has become His secret side or mystery side. And another meaning of Malchut in the Kabbalah world is manifestation. Manifestation is a prayer, a wish that comes true. And in f...

The etymology of Kabbalah is Lekabel, that means the “correspond” or “receive”, and the book Zohar means “splendor” or ”glory”. In Kabbalah, we can see that creation of Universe  and earth happened from the idea of someone, and with His light He created the earth and universe, and He created the mankind include. And the mankind is only one the typical, unique and special creation, cause for every creation just be receiver. But, just the human which can receive and giver of light. Did you know, because just the human only which has created as the God’s image. So from here, we can know that if we can be the like, we can receive the light but we can giver of light for every creation. And in Kabbalah, we learn that the way can be light, we need to resto re the light the connection with the Creator of Light, cause He is the only One the source that unstoppable. So more we have good connection with Him, we also can enlighten for this earth and for every creation. So here we...

One of our Patriarch, Avraham is Chesed, and the meaning of Chesed is the mercy. And chasadim is the the plural pronoun from the mercy. And the antonym of Chesed is judgement. Even though mercy and judgement opposite each other, but in Kabbalah the mercy can’t stand alone without the judgement, so as the judgement. And the morning is Chesed. So it’s the right time to activate the Chesed light in our life. The morning, is called the Chesed, cause when the morning come, the God’s love and mercy is renewed always. And through from this, we can learn that when the morning, first, we give the greetings to Creator of light, before we greet our neighbor or our breatren. And second, we don’t just share the greeting, but at this morning too we can do charity. I remember, that the charity is one of to share our light. When we more share the light, I believe, that the energy of our light be more powerful in everyone. Charity in Hebrew is tzedekah. The etimology of tzedekah is Tzedek, Tzadik, that...

We always hear the mantra of “Avacadavra” or “Abrachadabra”. And we always listen to from the magic world. This mantra is so really famous, and remember when I was child, this mantra was like the game, and I was so really really happy to say that. But for now, I understand that the Avrachadvra never we find in Zohar book. But, the Avrachadavra was certained from 3 words, and from the roots of Hebrew word. Avrachadavra was A-v-ra-cha-da-va-ara. The etimology was from Avraham, Bracha, and Ba’ara. As we knew that Avraham was Chesed or mercy. Bracha was blessings, and alludes to Malchut. And Ba’ara, the etimology from Bereshit (Genesis), the mean “In First Time”. And if we look it carefully, they have the same initial, “Beth”. And the  “Beth” in pictogram is home, love. The creation always be begin with Beth letter, cause the Creation has created every creation with love. So, if we see from above, the meaning of “Avrachadavra” or “Abrachadabra” is love and blessings words, it’s not for...

Some of people has question what’s that Tetragramaton, and if we see and read on the Book Zohar, so we will find that there’s any much more the words or sentences were written with capital letter. The Tetragramaton sometimes has called as the Tetragram. And in the Tetragramatom is countained  the “Tree Of Life” or Sfirot.  And Tetragamaton just contains 4 letter, namely Y-H-V-H, Yud-Hei-Vav-Hei, or shortly just 3 letters, Y-H-V, Yod Hei Vav. In Kabbalah, each letters of Y-H-V-H contained the different sfirot. And Y-H-V-H is Zeir Anpin. Yud is Chesed, Hei is Gvurah, Vav is Tiferet, and the second Hei is Malchut. And in Tetrtagramaton is the same with Avraham (Chessed), Yitzhak (Gvurah), and Jacob (Tiferet). In Tetragramaton we find the 4 worlds, Atzilut (Yud), Briah (Hei), Yetzirah (Vav), Asiyah (Hei), and 4 the journey of soul, Fire (Yod), Water (Hei), Air (Vav), Earth (Malchut). So if we find the sentences and words were written by capital letters, so recommended that we read...

 Alright, for the beginner the 72 names of God is really really so interesting things in Kabbalah. But before we deeper what’s the 72 names of God, we need to know the history from Book Zohar, in Parshah Beshalach, the Parshah of 17th, point from 170 until 206. And this parshah is one of my favourite parshah on Zohar. Each time I read it, I always feel the energy as the ocean waves. And the behind history of the 72 names of God, the begin first from the Mosheh went to Sinai Mount to get the tablet of 10 Commandments. And there, the Moshe faces the Metatron and Sandalphon between the any clouds, at the Sinai Mount. True, it was really really spiritual and mystical experience. And before the Moshe got the tablets of 10 commandments, he found the 72 letter, to save him from the wrath of the angels. And we read much more in Parshah Beshalach. About the 72 names of god, it’s the combination between Gvurah, Chessed, and Tiferet, in every the letter. And as the normally, the Tiferet alway...

Maybe, in this section the last about the meditation. Here, I still share some of my experiences, and I believe, for some people, it's not always the same experience, but please no sorrow. Cause the spiritual journey for everyone is need the process, and time to grow. The first thing that I will always feel, sometimes if I can come into the spiritual world, I see the blue sky. So more come into the high place, more behold the blue sky that is so clean and so clear, without the clouds or mist. And the lower grade, more find the clouds everywhere, and to see the blue sky is harder. The second, I always smell some fragrance or scent, such as flowers, herbs, etc. The third, this one I always experience the most. What I declared, as my both ears can hear the some echoing so clearly. Every time I get this experience like this, I always declare what I desire for people and the universe, last but not least, for myself. Fourth, I always learn to know every atmosphere and vibe that covers me...

The meditation in Kabbalah is not like eastern meditation, but in Kabbalah the meditation is the pathway to get connection with the Creator Of Light, and we can find His light and so we can manifest His light to the entire world. And through the meditation, we can repair the connection with His light. In Kabbalah, the person does meditation to can activate the light. And as before I shared about the best time to meditate, so here at this section I will share the some simple way to meditate. First, the most recommended is at the dawn time, or night before morning. You can read again at the before section. Second, find the place that really so calm and quiet, and so rare to visit with any people. Both the day or night. Cause it will I give impact the energy you feel and you find in the spiritual atmosphere. And if I personally, I always choose the place that so quiet and far from crowd. And I always listen to the calm sea voice, a with the soft wind. The calm sea voice will help me to fi...

In this section, I just want to share one of the most favorite times for me. But long before speaking about that time, I will share one of the beautiful connections of Light in Kabbalah. And even I remember sometimes, the most romantic connection I've ever known this year, Nukva And Zeir Anpin. One of the beautiful connections of Light is between Nukva and Zeir Anpin. In Kabbalah, the moon is Nukva, because the moon is corresponder of Light. The moon can't be light at night, if the sun doesn't send the light. And the sun in Kabbalah is Zeir Anpin. Zeir Anpin is heaven, and the sun is the receiver of Light. Sometimes, the sun in Kabbalah has the meaning of Spiritual as The Creator, and the moon or Nukva is the Congregation Of Yisrael, meaning the entire world. And through this theosophy, in Kabbalah it is said that The creator cannot live without the world, cause He desires to share His love and His bestowing. And world, as the corresponder can never live without the ...