My Kabbalah Diary

  Without realizing it, the Pey Daleth Jewish New Year has passed, and we are just waiting for the Yom Kippur holiday which is waiting before us. When we remember Yom Kippur, one thing that comes to mind is a very sad day of mourning, where Yom Kippur is a day of fasting to purify each person. Yom Kippur is the Day of Atonement. And approaching this same day, in the Kabbalah tradition, is the continuation of Rosh Hashanah, where a chosen girl will prepare herself to welcome the day of her fiancé. Even though the Yom Kippur holiday itself is a day of fasting, on the same day, the Book of Life is opened, and every name will be written in it. When a person's name is written in the Book of Life, it means that he will also be recorded in the life to come, or that the year will be a good year for him. If it is not written, then vice versa. And of course we all hope that, when we start this new season, our names will also be recorded in the Book of Life. And our life belongs to the Supern...

  Ein Sof is the only source of light that exists in the entire universe, and Ein Sof is the only light that divides and becomes ten parts, namely each sfirot of the Tree of Life. Ein Sof literally means Eternal, Unlimited, Endless Life. In Kabbalah, Ein Sof spiritually has the meaning of Ein, which is the head, and Sof, which is the end. So that it gives birth to the meaning of "The First and the Last". Ein Sof is the name of the Creator himself, which means "Endless", and at the same time, "He is the First and the Last", in all the processes of His creation. And we are humans who are sparks of the light of Ein Sof, and in the end we who live in His light will get eternal life (Ein Sof). In the process of creation, Ein Sof was incubated by the earth, giving birth to the Kabbalah Tree of Life. And the other name of Ein Sof is Atik Yomin that has means The Ancient Day. Atik Yomin symbolizes as the first time before the creation. Love and Light, Nuriella. ...

One of my close social media friends, asked me to teach what authentic Kabbalah is. And after all this time, I chatted with h er , I just realized what the difference is between Kabbalah and Christian Charismatic . Indeed, even though it looks quite controversial, this is one thing that is very interesting to talk about. What a coincidence, the church that is currently giving me the opportunity to grow, is actually not Christian Charismatic, but has converted to Christian Charismatic Movement, similar but not the same. Of course, few people understand what Christian Charismatic Movement is. OK, here I will share some similarities that are quite clear between the views of Christian Charismatic and the Kabbalah that I have been studying.                  First , Kabbalah places great emphasis on the relationship between the Creator and mankind. Likewise with Charismatic Christian, which has always been known a...

I remember when I was very small, several times my mother gave me some apple slices, and then dipped them with a little honey. It's true, apples are quite sweet fruit, added with honey, so they taste even more sweet. And every Rosh Hashanah celebration, apples and honey are always one of the typical dishes, which also reminds us of a prayer for an increasingly sweet new year. However, in spiritual Kabbalah, the apple symbolizes the fruit of Da'ath, namely the Fruit of Knowledge of Good and Evil. Meanwhile, honey is symbolized as purity, medicine or recovery. So, the meaning of an apple dipped in honey is, sweetening judgment, namely forgiveness and love. Thus, it means that when the Jewish New Year begins, a new chapter of life begins. And love with forgiveness, will sweeten one's judgment. Love and Light, Nuriella.

 Purple is a mixture of two colors, namely, red and blue. And when identified, the color red is included in the left column on the tree of life, and at the same time also includes the Malchut aspect, because the color red is a representation of blood, and also a feminine aspect. However, the color blue is an aspect of Malchut, and also an aspect of the right coloumn, namely the aspect of masculine and authority. However, a mixture of red and blue will also turn purple. And because of that, purple is color of Tiferet, because it is a symbol of harmony between the left column and the right column. So the red color which originally had the meaning of blood, because it is connected to Tiferet, will have the meaning of forgiveness. And the color blue has the meaning of authority, so when combined with the color purple which is Tiferet, it will have a spiritual meaning as the Throne of Justice. The Throne of Truth, and also the Throne of Grace.  Love and Light, Nuriella.

  In this section, we're still talking about 5784, but this time, we're going to take a deeper look into numerology and the 4's own pictogram. Dalet's pictogram is an open door, and this also speaks of the opening of a spiritual door, coupled with the presence of Pey, which means one's own mouth, so what a person says will take him to a different spiritual world or spiritual dimension. I think this year too, namely Pey-Daleth will be a journey that feels quite different from before.   Apart from that, Daleth which means the door of the tabernacle, namely Malchut, this also reminds us of how Abraham (Chesed) stood at the door of the tabernacle (Malchut), and welcomed the arrival of the angels, and this also speaks of a spiritual meaning. And Daleth who talks about how poor people run to rich people, to get help. The message from Daleth is to humble oneself, or spiritually it is called being a poor person (Dal). In the Zohar it was written, we we re taught to ask...

Without realizing it, we will end the month of Elul and also the Jewish date 5783, and 5784 will be a new beginning, and a change of seasons. Numerology 84 is Pey and Dalet. Pey means the number 80, and its spiritual meaning is mouth, speech and conversation. The aspect of Pey's numerology is feminine. And Dalet, has numerology 4, and the spiritual meaning is an open door or window, and is sometimes interpreted as Dal meaning a poor person.   After a while, I meditated on this Pey Dalet. I felt that throughout the year 5784, it is where an open mouth meets an open door. This means that there will be freedom to speak. would like to express. Remember, when we enter ed the year 5781, when our open mouths must be closed, we were not only maintaining social distance from each other, but our physical mouths must also be closed, because of masks. So, Pey Dalet is the beginning where there is a turning point from a closed mouth to an open mouth. Not only that, maybe this is good and...

Has it ever crossed your mind that Zeir Anpin, who is a source of much need of praise and worship from the Congregation of Israel, is the Malchut aspect? Why did Zeir Anpin need all of that, when the Supernal King was the only source of everything? And for what purpose were all Malchut ’s giving ?    When the Congregation of Israel, Malchut, raised his voice, he had invited the Shekinah (Presence of God), to pull the Congregation of Israel together with Zeir Anpin, the Supernal King. And the voices that we listen to, b oth our songs, our prayers, or our words, all of them contain the element of wind, that is, spirit. It can be heard, it can be felt but cannot be seen by the physical eyes. And of course, it was Malchut who was not, who needed the bright light from the Sun, Zeir Anpin. A s we know, that of course, the source will definitely not look for what he needs, because the Supernal King already has everything. But he still needs Malchut's voice, and that is the truth....

  In the Hebrew tradition, in the month of Elul, is the moment when the King meets his bride-to-be. "Where is my lover?", A question uttered by the King. Then, what should be done as a bride, namely Malchut, to welcome the arrival of the Supernal King, Zeir Anpin?   Sound is an aspect of Zeir Anpin himself, so the sound we listen to will invite the Supernal King himself. Indeed, in Shir Hashirim, the one who is written as a king here is none other than King Solomon himself. However, the spiritual meaning of King Solomon is the symbol of the King of Peace. Thus, one of the goals of Zeir Anpin is to reconcile and unite the top three sefirot Arich Anpin, namely Keter, Chochmah, and Binah with sfirot Malchut. Words too are an aspect of Malchut, and manifestation. By saying it, we are also manifesting what we say. So, whatever the mouth says and hears, is the union between of aspects of Zeir Anpin and Malchut.   The Supernal King was very interested in Malchut, when...

One of the months that I really like is Elul. Elul is the last month of the Hebrew calendar. Elul has the Zodiac Virgo, which means virgin, and at the same time is also the month of the Gad tribe. One of the reasons why the month of Elul is my favorite month, is because every time I enter the month of Elul I always make it a month of God's declaration and at the same time a month of preparation for celebrating the Pilgrim holiday.     אֲנִ֤י לְדוֹדִי֙ וְדוֹדִ֣י לִ֔י הָרֹעֶ֖ה בַּשּׁוֹשַׁנִּֽים׃  { ס}    he month of Elul is acronym from       I am my beloved’s And my beloved is mine; He browses among the lilies.” (Shir Hashirim 6:3)   This Nats also talks about a very strong connection between Zeir Anpin and Malchut. Every human being is Malchut, the feminine aspect, and the Divine is Zeir Anpin, the Masculine aspect. And therefore also, it is also not wrong if the month of Elul is one of the months of union, where the Sup...

                 One of my favorite books in the Bible or the Book of Tanakh, is the Song of Songs or Shir H ashirim . Even though it only consists of 8 chapters, and is vulgar to some people's views, the book of Shir Hashirim is full of spiritual meaning. And every time I think of the Creator, the Song of Songs accompanies me.                  The book of the Song of Songs was written by King Solomon, that is, it has a spiritual meaning, the King of Peace. And apart from that, another spiritual meaning of King Solomon is the Supernal King. And the Song of Songs, included in Tiferet, after the order of the two books written by King Solomon himself which are recorded in the Bible, namely, Proverbs or Mishlei as an aspect of Chesed, and Ecclesiastes or Kohelet as an aspect of Gevurah. And when we read the Zohar book, the writings in the Song of Songs are always quot...

The color blue belongs to the aspect of Malchut. Then, what is the definition of blue in Kabbalah consciousness? It is true, God's Throne is identified with the color blue, namely sapphire. The word sapphire comes from the word sfirah, which is a crown or throne. In the meaning of the word blue here, Throne of God and along with the Shekinah, is Malchut. If we understand more deeply what the spiritual meaning of the color blue is, the Zohar has led us to see the miracle that God did through the intercession of Moses, namely freeing the Israelites from slavery in the land of Egypt, namely dividing the Red Sea. Here, we can imagine that if we are facing the beach, one color that we will see is blue. Both from the sky and the blue sea. So whatever we see about blue will always remind us of one thing, namely the Throne of God and Pesach or Passover. God's T hrone and Pesach have the same meaning, which is a judgment through God's sight. Then, what will judgment be like in the ...

  Every one of us knows who Noah is from the story of the ark and the flood of his day. Noah built the ark with his family according to what the Creator ordered. But each of us has probably had dreams or visions that are almost similar to Noah's and his ark, that is, someone is dreaming that he is in a very large ark, surrounded by many people, and also in the ark there is a very wide sail. Even though all of this is only based on dreams and visions, we also need to understand the meaning of a dream or vision. From the story of Noah and his family, they will become a standard in the spiritual world.  First, the sea. The sea is Malchut, and enters into the aspect of judgment, or the aspect of receiving. Because the sea is as wide as possible, all the rivers drain all their water into the ocean. So that in dreams or visions too, the sea speaks something of need or fulfillment. and the waves of the sea speak of movement. Because without wind and sea waves, it was very difficult f...

  Every time we hear bread and wine, some Christians will be left behind with the Holy Communion which is always held in church. However, this banquet, which was served with bread and wine, was not the first time when Jesus celebrated Holy Communion with His twelve disciples. But the first person recorded in the Bible who held such a banquet, was when Abraham entertained a Salem king named Abimelech. And Abraham served him with bread and wine. Of course, to talk about this passage about bread and wine is not only from a Christian perspective, but from a Kabbalah point of view. Bread is included in the aspect of Malchut, and is represented by the moon. White round bread symbolizes an agreement. And wine itself is a symbol of love, harmony and joy. Wine that has blood, because it is red. And red is also blood belonging to the Malchut aspect group. If we remember the Holy Communion, some churches still do it by breaking white round bread, which means changing an old testament. And win...